Nonsense

For several reasons my eyes don't open.
It's not that I don't want to, it's because I believe in something else.
How I wish the past could be the present and the present be the future.
Not exactly it is now, but like the best it could be.
Guess it isn't enough to become bigger.
It'll stay an expectation, only a hope.
Yes, life has many paths and ways, but none of them will be complety full.
None of them are empty, they just need time to grow by their own.
Guess it's not right to depend on anything.
Everything is based in moments, and moments go away.

Those words that brought happiness and hope could (finally) stop the suffering.
But does it really depend on others?
I'm the one who feels, so I'm the one that must put an end.
Maybe it's my fault since the beginning.
Shouldn't have let myself jump in.
Shouldn't have believed in fairy tales.
They only live in our imagination, and the most part of us will never believe in these madness.
A trick or the real meaning of life?
We all want to live the most beautiful dream, but few of us go after it.
And sometimes the most beautiful dream goes to a different direction.
If it goes alone, it'll be one thing.
If something interfere, it'll become other thing completely opposite.
So... do I try to catch it or let it be what it's supposed to be?
And if it doesn't want to be changed?

It's easier to think, to create solutions.
Try to accomplish them when what you really want to do is what makes you happy, not what's supposedly right.
But of course, it doesn't depend on you.