Gone. Just gone

She misses those tiny little things that used to make her smile all day long. Those things that for anybody else would be ordinary, for her were the highest levels of joy. When everything was white, black and blue, one thing only could save her world. It sounds stupid, of course. Only she could understand how important few things on this Earth are worth living. She misses her dreams, believes and magic that made her feel diferent from the rest. At least for a moment, at least once. She tries to think how did that happen, all those feelings inside her are now dead. Like everybody, she didn't like to feel vulnerable, foolish, lost, dependent... Nevertheless those feelings were alive inside her. That is her nature, it has always been. How did that change? When did she let herself to fell into the eyes of society? She lost her characters, and now it's dificult to bring them back. And now, like no other special day, she lives their daily routine.
Imagine yourself witnessing something that for you, is amazing. It could be anything, anything at all that for you is like no other living thing. This sensation of finding something unique. She feels just like that, or at least she felt.