Christmas letter

Dear Santa,

The truth I've been hiding so well - even from myself - is
I've been secretly in love with the same person for more than 5 years.

I wasn't able to let myself love again,
and inch by inch
I've become a lonely ghost of a person,
but everytime I see her, I'm more sure that I've never stopped caring.

For all this time I've wished her well,
and if it was meant to be,
that she'd be even better by my side.

I guess I was right after all:
once you truely love someone, you care it forever, even if things change.

My wish never came true, she never returned or showed interested in me...
So I'm here asking
- actually I would beg for -
a different wish this year:
take this love away.

If not by my side, please take her out off my mind.
Since she'll never want me as badly as I want her.